Wide Awake....Kind of.

Here it is, 4:30am and I'm still awake, just like every night before it since Rylee was born. Honestly, its been going on since before she was born. My husband used to work weird hours and wouldn't get home until around 1am, which meant that that's when my evening started. By the time he would get home, I was alone for twelve plus hours by myself with no other human contact and I was not just going to give him a kiss on the cheek and go to bed just to start everything all over again when he woke up. I was already miserable. Me and hubs would wake up at about 1pm or so and we wouldn't go to sleep until 5am. I think that was the real start to my sleeping problems.

Now that we're back in Southern Arizona, his sleep schedule has changed and mine hasn't. He has no problem sleeping through the night where for some reason, even when I'm exhausted (Honestly, when am I NOT exhausted) I can't force myself to fall asleep at night. Part of me thinks its because of my issues when it comes to sleeping in the same room as Rylee. Every noise she makes and my eyes pop open, I can't sleep, even when she sleeps. Part of me also thinks its because I have issues going to sleep if I am just going to be woken up within two hours. Mostly, I think I'm just weird.

Either way, its something I need to work on. I mean, what am I going to do when hubs gets another job and I'm taking care of Rylee all night and all day? Our current routine isn't going to work. Hell, whats going to happen when he finally enlists and is away at basic or deployed? I'd literally never sleep!

Hopefully this ends soon and I (and hopefully she) can sleep through the night.